| Monday, February 24th, 2003 |
| 2:16 pm |
what is life without love
well...maybe my life is looking up. half way. i finally got a date for prom (i still love you megly). its jonathan. i think it is going to be fun. i have to get a dress. i have no clue how im going to get the money for that but im sure that i can get it somehow (is that one word or two?). a good friend told me that he would give me the money for my dress but i dont want to feel like i owe him, you know what i mean. i still miss jay a lot, but i still like that other guy. i spent the night with justin saturday night after work. we got a wild hair and tried to ride to b-ville but we got stuck in this really bad storm. it was hailling like crazy, lightning, and raining really hard. we started to scream...it was so funny byt scary. STOP LOOKING AT WHAT IM TYPING CUCUMBER!!! LOL. well...i gtg buh bye god bless, jill e. prevatte |
| Tuesday, February 18th, 2003 |
| 2:27 pm |
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| 2:05 pm |
taking the time to love
dont ask y i put that for my subject. i guess that was the first thing that came to my head. im really starting to annoyed with the play. i cant stand ppl that cant do anything right. i not really that i cant do anything right its just that they dont care. i hate ppl that dont care. when everyone around them is trying there best at what they do and they make everyone else's lives living hells. i hate that more then anything. im really starting to miss jay. he has been gone since the middle of nov. feb 13 has been 3 months. he says that he will be back in the middle or may. that is a long time. he has missed everything. the thing that upsets me the most is that he is not going to be here for prom. i really want him to be there. i'm almost to the point there is he aint there then i dont know if i even want to go. i have been to 2 proms as it is. i know what happens there. you get you pictures made, dance with someone you might not even what to really be there is and go to beach and get laid (not saying that that is what happen to me but i know what goes on) its not like im missing out on much. i have lots of friends that i could go with but they all are not prom type. atleast not for me. but i fell like if i dont go then all of my friends r really going to be disappointed in me and i dont want that. i know that you dnt have to have a date but it is better to have one. if i do decide to go im getting in a car with one of my best friends in the whoele (megly) and heading to coastline. ok that is the end of the prom ordeal. ok i dont what to seem like im complaning or anything but i just have a lot of things going on at the moment that my head cant really process at one time. ok have you ever liked a guy but yet you like another. ok thats me. i cant give you the real details about it cuz someone might be smart and figure it out. and that will not be the best things for both of us now. i really love being with this other guy. he is great, funny, cute (kinda), and go the money, not saying that that is the only reason im talking to him but you know that it come always come in handy. the only thing is that our lives r getting in the way of us really being together. he's life is totally different from mine. he has a lot of bad things going on and trying to get through with his family and he mind still intact. i feel like i have to be there to help him. i wanna help. you all know me, always willing to help a friend. but something he get blown up at me for the little things. like last night of example, he got really pissed at me cuz i was on the internet and talking to him at the same time. it not like i was ignoring him. i dont know what to do. if i dont figure something out soon im going to lose it.....someone hold me! Jill E. Prevatte |
| Monday, February 10th, 2003 |
| 8:37 pm |
wow...its been a while
ok...wow. i havent done this in a while. i guess im going to have to tell you about everything that is going on. well...i have met the man of my dreams. i cant tell you who it is. if i did you would think that im nuts. i really dont know what to write. i havent done this in so long...well you know how it is. im going to go now...love ya lots |
| Sunday, September 2nd, 2001 |
| 8:22 am |
hoping to find you
ok...like last week me and zach had like the biggest figth ever. we would even talk to each other. and then saturday he had a wreck. i like totally blame my self for the wreck. im mean what if he got killed or something. i couldnt live with my self knowing that he die pissed off at me and me pissed off at him. and we never got the chance to make up. |
| Sunday, August 12th, 2001 |
| 8:44 am |
school started
well we're back in school :( my foot is killing at the moment but thats only cuz i broke. lol. its not really funny cuz they said that they dont even know if ill ever dance again. like ive said before if i cant dance just go ahead and kill me |
| Wednesday, July 25th, 2001 |
| 11:22 am |
well, its never going to happen
well, it look like me and zach will never be agian. i upset in a away but then agian im ok with it. i wanted to be with zach so bad. but its never going to happen. |
| Monday, July 23rd, 2001 |
| 9:45 am |
i seen shawn today
i seen shawn today. he stoped by this morning. i was kinda happy to see him. but now i have the mark on my arm from were he hit me. he was still mad cuz we broke up. i miss him and all but i dont like the fact that he hits. thats something that i dont like. but he also told me that i couldnt get out of this relationship even if i tried. "you'll never find someone that loves you as much as i love you." thats what he tells me. i just wish that i could get out of this once and for all. i have to go to band camp today. im really to go and then again im not i scared that i will do something dumb and make my self look like a idiot. but you know how that is. |
| Sunday, July 22nd, 2001 |
| 2:23 pm |
i saw him
i saw that person i like today. i felt really werid around him. i nomally dont feel that way. i dont know why im feeling like that but i am. i dont know if the feeling im feeling is good or bad. i hope that it is good. i will see him tomorrow too. i cant wait until i do see him. this person told me something friday night that i dont really understand. i wish that i could help him but i dont know what to say or do. so i just tell him some advice. i still like shawn and all but i know that i dont need someone like him. the guy that i like now he wanted me to break up with shawn. that is one reason why i broke up with him. |
| Saturday, July 21st, 2001 |
| 9:41 pm |
things r looking up
i had to go to work today.:( i didnt make that much money but its a little cash. mother is letting my go to band camp. that makes me feel a little better. me and my bf broke up. im ok but there is someone that i like now. but i still like mey ex, i dont know what to do. |
| Friday, July 20th, 2001 |
| 10:27 pm |
bad day
today was like the one of the worst days ever. my mother told me that i couldnt dance and do flag team. you just need to kill me now. dancing is my life. if i cant dance i just will die. I havent seen my bf in a week. |
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